i hate cleaning

i do. i hate it.
especially the fact that i'm the only #$*%^*$ person who $*%(*# cleans in the &#*(#& house. not only do i have to clean, but i have to attempt to *teach* others how to clean so that one day, when i'm dead, or sick, or birthing a child, i wont be the only one who knows how to put shit away.

honest. i'm so frustrated with BOTH of them. $*%&%^$!!!!!

messy, you have no idea how lucky you are.

long time, no bloggy bloggy

ok. its been a while.

but i'm back and i'm making crackers. yay me!

i have this thought (not really a theory. well maybe a theory) that we're so used to buying everything at the grocery store, that we forget that we can make them. really truely. we can. somebody had to. and to be honest, if somebody didnt make them, i dont think i want to eat them. i can't feel the love from the robot chutney.

anyway, back to my thought.

I think we all know someone who makes bread. maybe the grandmother, father, sister-in-law....whoever. thats not as far fetched as other things. but crackers. i'm very excited about these. i've more-or-less taken crackers out of our diet, mainly because its too expensive. and it can cause a big eco-footprint. (late july crakers are yummy, but they're from farther away than 100 miles, thats for sure) i figure when i get good at making crakers, i can expand my craker making ability. maybe make some cracked wheat, or cheese (for the young boy), who knows!! and way freakin cheaper anyway.

but its wierd how we dont really think about where our food comes from. its one thing to buy it all organic. but its another to buy an orgainc avacado from mexico that had to be trucked out here. not so good for the enviro. (and yes, i do buy them dammit.)

i find it frustrating, living this life with eyes open. once you start to look at one thing, you cant help but look at everything. and so you should as far as i'm concerned. i'm not a veggie, but i definatly like that i know that my animal friends were well looked after.

oh - before i forget, we might be going to work at a farm this summer. yay! how fun is that. ok. you might not think its very fun, but look at it like this: my kids get to experiance the country. we get to break bread with another earth-loving family, we get to SEE where our food comes from, and connect with it. i'm excited. we're going to be in a tent for a week, on a farm.

crazy.

ok, the timer went off.
crackers are ready!

oh - this is the website that i got it from. its a good read.

http://nomoregarbage.wordpress.com/2007/01/28/kitchen-party/

jen

push-button publishing, my ass.

i cant post a picture. i think that sucks, but whatever - i have more improtant things to think about.

hummmm...what is that exactly?

nick asked me today what i'm passionate about. i had to think about it. Ive been so stuck in getting the things done in my day that i needed to do, that i never really think about it. I spend my time being a housewife that i dont feel like i have time to discover such things. This conversation happily co-incides with my browsing on www.etsy.com looking for fantasticly unique handmade clothes. damn, so inspiring. i'd love to be able to make stuff like that. i'd love to be able to dress like that. Its awful upon realizing that i'm 30, and i have yet to find a personal style. i dont know who i am, i come across and frumpy, and as though i dont care about my wardrobe because i refuse to fit into "the norm". lets just say that i'm not a fashion diva - or have ever aspired to be. but i dont want to be frumpy either, i want to be comfortable and display who i am. why is that so hard - even at 30???

so thats my passion. creating. whether it be sewing for myself and my family, or knitting, or learing how to cook better. it is my passion.

um, thats great. how do i do that???

christmas at the jonks

yup. its all over. now we've just got the new year, and then we're done for another year. kinda sad. but the pictures are good at least.

let there be peace on earth

and let it begin with me.....

oh its christmas. its christmas. santa is coming - which to be honest - kinda creapy. but whateva. more importanly, my family is coming!! yay!! almost all of them too. i'm sad because Jane and Megan arent coming because they had to make an emergancy trip to toronto, but at least i have the rest of them. my tree is decorated, the prezzies are done, the christmas music is playing...ahhh so good.

speaking of christmas music - my favourate song HAS to be "fairytale of newyork" by the pogues. sooo good. here's a quote.
Youre a bum
Youre a punk
Youre an old slut on junk
Lying there almost dead on a drip in that bed
You scumbag, you maggot
You cheap lousy faggot
Happy christmas your arse
I pray God its our last

dude, it just doesnt get more christmassy than that!!

tarts

so my tarts are crap. the first batch i made were so yummy! so i got really excited about making them. but i ran our of un-bleached white all purpose and used whole wheat pastery instead. turns out you cant substitute the flour. they're dence and gross. the other thing is - i had them in the oven for what seemed like an hour. but they didnt cook fast. i think my oven is broken. this is not something that i want to deal with right before i'm to make a turkey dinner. oh dear.

i have comments! yay! i'm very excited about that.
anyway, I finished my blanket. i love it, paity pants loves it. it glows in the dark - how cool is that? it kind of surprised me though in the middle of the night. Its cozy, and well, already dirty - which i'm taking as a good sign. i see this being her blanket that she carries around like - isnt that guy linous??? (i'm sure thats spelt wrong) I feel super crafty and accomplished. I even made applesauce and got dinner started (in the crockpot) before 8am this morning. yay me.

so i took the kids (the 2 young ones) for a walk this morning. Pait on my back, and M in the stroller. what a workout!! but i needed stamps, honest. the starbucks was just a bonus! and now ist about 10 am, and paity has had a nap, M is happily playing with the blocks and drum....oh so much fun!!!

I guess thats it! thanks for reading - and i looooove comments!!

Jen